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  • In the Beginning: Real Rocks and a Feeling
    September 12, 2024 · 5 min read
    One side of the creation debate has rocks, fossils and DNA. The other has a feeling. Here's why that mattered to me, and why Christmas survives it.
  • From the Ashes
    September 9, 2024 · 5 min read
    Mormon children are buried in water at eight. Rebirth is the oldest story we tell, and it always starts with something in us having to die.
  • Historicity: Was He Real?
    June 21, 2024 · 5 min read
    "Is it true?" is the wrong question to ask about scripture. Two better questions, and better words, for sorting history from legend.
  • Unraveling Consciousness
    May 17, 2024 · 4 min read
    Erich Neumann argued that each of us relives humanity's oldest myths as we grow up. One idea of his changed how I think about God.
  • Everyone Knows Everyone: The Church as Community
    May 8, 2024 · 4 min read
    A ward will carry your couch and feed your family. Those strong ties are a real gift, and they cut both ways. Here's how I hold both.
  • Spirited
    April 6, 2024 · 4 min read
    I didn't stop being spiritual when I stopped believing. My spiritual experiences just don't have to fit a story anymore.
  • God Magic
    March 27, 2024 · 5 min read
    Why I use the plain word "magic" for supernatural claims, how our beliefs sound in plain words, and why wonder doesn't need a magician.
  • Cosmic Revelations: Every Culture Has a Creation Story
    February 19, 2024 · 5 min read
    Norse giants, a cosmic egg, a sky father pushed off the earth. We call those myths. Why do we exempt our own, and is the Big Bang any different?
  • Meaningness
    January 25, 2024 · 6 min read
    When the plan of salvation stopped holding my life's meaning, nihilism moved in for a while. Here's what I found on the other side of it.
  • Older Than the Cross: Notes on Tom Holland's Dominion
    January 15, 2024 · 5 min read
    Sacrifice, baptism, a god fathering a son with a mortal woman: all older than Christianity. What Tom Holland's Dominion helped me see about what was new.
  • Changing Tides: How the Church Changes Without Saying So
    November 23, 2023 · 5 min read
    The church is changing, quietly, one shifting baseline at a time. I welcome most of it. But I don't think it can stop where it is.
  • The Things We Feel
    November 11, 2023 · 5 min read
    I've felt the burning in the bosom too. The feeling is real. What I no longer accept is that it proves a doctrine is true.
  • Revelation Gone Wrong
    September 29, 2023 · 6 min read
    Personal revelation is ordinary, and it was never meant to replace thinking. Why emotion-based decisions go wrong, and what scripture says instead.
  • Fallen Away, and Other Words We Should Retire
    September 5, 2023 · 4 min read
    Fallen. Lost. Struggling. The words we use about people who leave carry a verdict. Changing a few of them is where dignified dissent begins.
  • The Best of the CES Letter
    August 12, 2023 · 5 min read
    My short list of the CES Letter's strongest points: the ones the church's own essays now acknowledge. Honest about the facts, fair to the faithful.
  • Plates of Gold and the Shrinking Map
    June 17, 2023 · 5 min read
    The Book of Mormon world keeps getting smaller: from two continents to a few hundred miles. Here's why I think that matters more than it seems to.
  • God Is Dead
    May 19, 2023 · 5 min read
    Nietzsche's most famous line isn't a victory chant. Here's what I think it means, and why I outgrew God as the church taught him without becoming anti-god.
  • Beyond Dogma
    April 28, 2023 · 4 min read
    I'm not anti-God and I'm not anti-religion. I've just loosened my grip on dogma, and kept the stories as something to live with, not argue over.
  • Archetypes: Why the Old Stories Still Ring True
    March 10, 2023 · 5 min read
    A story can be untrue as history and still ring true in us. That isn't a dodge. It's how Jung's archetypes help me keep scripture without the literalism.

Resources

  • Resources for the Viewer
    Videos I recommend on spiritual experiences, Mormon stories and the psychology of belief. If you watch only one, watch the first.
  • Resources for the Reader
    The books I point people to on the big questions about God and religion. Fair warning: some are hard on faith.

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